We are the divine expression of our beliefs, fears and negative experiences from childhood. My childhood was wracked with a lot of fear and insecurities. I loved my mother dearly (RIP), but she had very high expectations for me. Whatever I did was never really enough for her, so I constantly had to prove to her that I was smart enough, perfect enough, pretty enough and skinny enough for her to love me. As a result, I lived in constant fear of her. At one point, I barely ate, and I got very skinny. It wasn’t until I moved out of the house and got married at age 19 that I began to eat normally again. I truly believe that I surpressed my divine right to be loved. My belief was that I was not enough, and I still struggle with that belief from time to time – even at 65 years old. I have been divorced since I was 21.
Until we resolve those haunting inner beliefs about ourselves, we attract the divine reflection of what we believe we deserve. In otherwords, we attract exact mirrors of ourselves and our own inner core beliefs about ourselves. I have learned the hard way, (and it has been a long journey) what affirmations work and what affirmations don’t work. Here are a couple of examples of affirmations I repeated, and what I manifested.
When I was in my early 40’s, I repeated the following affirmation – I AM NOW IN THE PERFECT RELATIONSHIP FOR ME WITH THE PERFECT MAN FOR ME.
This affirmation is very powerful, and it works; however, if we do not believe in ourselves as being loveable or deserving or if we are holding on to a lot of grief, fear and angry from the past, it will attract the exact replica of who we believe we are. In my case, I repeated the affirmation for a few months. After a few months, I had what I call a Spirit Dream in which the spirit of a soul mate and my spirit connected in a dream. In this spirit dream, I was in an enclosed room with a man , and we were intimate. Afterwards, we exchanged business cards.
A few months after that dream, I met HIM at a singles weekend at a nudist resort in Northern California. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I was going to meet the man in my dreams there. Sure enough, I recognized him the minute I saw him; and it happened exactly as it happened in the dream. He was much older then me by about 18 years, and he felt he was too old for a long distance relationship, but we had this incredible deep connection that I never quite forgot. This man had so many insecurities and fears – flying, the water, ships, elevators, you name it. About 2 years ago, out of the blue, he showed up at a singles event at Caliente Clothing Optional Resort where I live looking for me. It had been 20 years since I had seen him. Now, he was in his 80’s, and I think he was hoping for a reconnection, since he now lives in Florida. That didn’t happen, but I will never forget our divine connection.
Also, in my 40’s, I repeated the following affirmation-I AM NOW IN THE PERFECT RELATIONSHIP FOR ME WITH THE PERFECT HUSBAND FOR ME.
After repeating the affirmation for a couple of months, I began to feel like it might be the wrong affirmation for me. It dawned on me that by saying the perfect husband for me that I might manifest a married man. Almost immediately upon that realization, I had my spirit dream. The spirit of a soul mate and my spirit came together in a dream, and we literally made love. We fell deeply in love in the dream, and instantly I gave birth to a soul mate.. Afterwards, while we were holding hands across a table, I asked him who the woman was behind him; but he did not answer me. He asked me where I lived, I told him and he said he would find me. I remember telling a friend after the dream that I thought I might have manifested a married man.
A few months later, I met HIM on a plane; however, at that moment in time it did not register that it was him. He handed me his card, and asked me to call him when I got home. He said it with a sense of urgency. I did, and we made plans for a dinner date. On our dinner date, we were holding hands, and I asked him how long he had been divorced. He said he thought for sure I knew he was married, but that she lived in another state. We had an immediate and very emotional ending to our date, and we were both practically in tears. At that moment, I still didn’t realize it was the man in my dream; but he knew. The next day, it hit me like a ton of bricks that he was the man in my dream. I called him, and all I said was “the dream”, and he finished the sentence for me with “I told you in the dream that I was married, but you didn’t answer. The crazy part of it was that we had had the exact same dream, and he was looking for me as well. I never saw him again.
These affirmations are powerful, and they work; but we must be clear in what we truly want out of a relationship. If you know that you are not emotionally available or if you have issues that prevent you from being in a healthy loving relationship, it is better to resolve your issues before you repeat a soul mate affirmation.
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